Well, it's that time...I'm back to work after 12 wonderful, blissful weeks home with Jackson. I dropped off some stuff (diapers, wipes, extra clothes and such) at Jackson's daycare last week which ended up being such a great idea. Today was hard enough without having to deal with alot of details. I might have been fine this morning until Jackson started crying when Scott handed him to the woman in the infant room. That broke me and I had to leave quickly with tears streaming down my face. He is at a wonderful daycare, Step by Step Montessori, and I know he is being well taken care of but the idea that I can't be with him all day long -- to play with him, feed him and soothe his tears -- just crushes me. I miss him every minute of every hour. I know this will pass, that both he and I will get used to the daycare routine, but right now I just want to hold him while he takes a nap against my chest.
I've heard the saying that having a child means that your heart walks around outside your body for the rest of your life. How true! Jackson is my life. I absolutely adore being his mother and can't wait to see the kind of person he becomes! This journey has just begun and already I'm enthralled. No doubt there will be some bumps along the way but I can deal with anything as long as I have my boys -- Scott and Jackson -- right by my side. I love you both more than you could possibly know!